May

a good month for me
finally i have decided something for future
will get myself ready for it
wont run away again

but still
have to face some1 this month, finally
honestly
i hope
u wont come
what expression i should show when facing u?
what will cross my mind at that moment?
im not sure

btw,
just hope u r fine, nth much
best wishes for u

对，我没有那个本事，
不依赖人，
什么事都自己搞定。
但，关于这件事，
始终让你们失望难过蒙羞了
我也不想这样
该怎么面对，怎么交待我不懂
我没有讨厌他
我只是不懂该怎么面对
对不起
都是我的错
我真的知道是我的错
对不起

每个人都差不多

其实，压力,每个人都有。
寂寞,大家都寂寞。
何必太在意。
只是偶尔难免会难受。。
慢慢收拾心情。。
慢慢复原。。
我会适应的。。
GANBATTE！！！

blackout

i know im going to fall
at the last minute wanna cry for help
but still cant managed to call anybody
perhaps i don't know which person should i ask
helpless...
really helpless................
never mind
if it happens again
i will take care of myself
i have learned not to expect anyone
i take care of myself

Today

Feeling always influencing ppls' emotion
just release myself
only for today
only for tonight......................

Sweet Things

thinking to have a lot of sweet things now...
cheese cake
chocolate
honey
pudding
pancake
waffle cake
ice-blended red bean
&
ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!


worry about getting on weight or diabetic?
well, i dont care!!!

just put aside all those feeling
never think about it
never touch it
not important anymore

愚人的国度

孙燕姿 - 愚人的国度

填词：李焯雄/孙燕姿 作曲：孙燕姿

爱是愚人的国度
看我们演的好辛苦
是你所谓的领悟
我不懂 我不哭

看悲欢喜怒每一步
是疲惫还是依赖的束缚
来你能不能再重复
让我懂 让我哭

再让时间停住
再把字看清楚
不必再说假如
或穿过天地荒芜
借口 不能碰触

爱是愚人的国度
不能自拔 不懂退出
我们都回不去最初
曾美丽 但还是不满足
爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步自我陷入
究竟 是笑 是哭


再让画面停住
把自己看清楚
不必再说假如
或穿过一地荒芜
幸福 不能碰触

爱是愚人的国度
不能自拔 不懂退出
我们都回不去最初
曾美丽 但还是不满足

爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步自我陷入
究竟 是笑 是哭

爱是愚人的国度
不能自拔 不懂退出
我们都回不去最初
怎样爱 也还是不满足
爱是自娱自乐演出
一步一步 自我陷入
结局 是笑 是哭

like to visit your blog recently. though just read 1 or 2 post, it's really enough to keep my energy and spirit up. wish i can be like u, a responsible, confident, self-motivated and determined person. every time when i feel like lost in the air, your blog makes me find my direction back. your words keep telling me do not give up. maybe you don't know how much your articles affecting me, but it's really important to me. thank you very much! same to you too, do not give up. keep on moving!!!!

customer service

went to Immigration Office at Seberang Jaya to settle some foreign workers' matter this morning, which is also part of my responsibilities. i reached there at 9.30am, but surprisingly, the office has already crowded by people, cant even find a space to park my car in the immigration office's car park. without hesitate, i quickly pressed the machine to get my number when i reached the office. first number i got was 635, the present number was only 602 = =''' then i press another number, 849, the present number was just 815, OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how long i suppose to wait until i reach my turn?????? this situation immediately ruin my mood.......... i purposely not to go there too early in the morning as i experienced once before, i reached there at 8.30am, but the office counter only open after 9am. this time, i thought i'm so so clever not to go so early, no need to waste my time waiting there, but what's actually happening today? why such a big crowd of people come to office this morning? luckily i met a secondary school friend here, we chat while waiting for our turn. seeing those officers doing their responsibilities by serving the customers one by one. slow, their speed were extremely slowwwwwwwwww.... i wonder how they actually do their job? did they try to speed up as there were so much customers today?

the waiting process was tiring. some of the customers fed up too, keep grumbling there but they can't do anything as they knew it's useless if they make a complaint regarding their dissatisfaction. they knew the complaint wont bring any changes to their performance and efficiency. that's the image of government officers to people, people hope to see changes on them, but they losing hope on them at the same time too. so people never expect more from them, although they were not satisfy....... my friend and i finally reached our turn at 12.30pm, took us 3 hours at the immigration office, sigh....................... after that we went for lunch together and back to work then... tiring day><'''