A Boring Post

time flies so fast. never notice that my probation will reach 2 months soon. but all this long i never clarify what i've learned in this period. never mind, i will summarize and clarify a bit later on. but not now not here hahaha... anything changes to me? yes, good and bad. learn a lot from work, from colleagues, from superior. there's so much things and knowledge i never know and never touch on. feel really shame on myself. i need to catch up a lot in future so that i won't feel myself lack of knowledge in the field i'm involving now. ganbatte!

bad thing? several bad things too. everyday travel to my working place took about 50 minutes. consume of time and petrol fees make me feel bored. sometimes my leg cramp too when stuck in traffic jam, really frustrated and painful but still have to continue driving. some more have to wake up early in the morning and taste the rush hour to get myself well prepared before i go to work. what a life is this? but still, i have to accept it... that's why i got my own decision: mostly, i won't work there for too long time. maybe 1 year. maximum 2 years. oh gush, hope everyone i know in office won't see this post! a ha ha ha!

another things is i found myself talking to myself when i'm alone. this situation turning serious apparently lately, OMG scared myself too!!!!!!!! am i turning into a very old lady suddenly? or severe sickness? i shall clear away this habit ASAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

found myself get lost for so long time. i will find my way back to the right path soon. very very soon~

sorry

sorry for everything i did to u.
sorry...

Bless My Family

grandma sick, admitted in hospital...
hope the doctors take their responsibilities seriously,
instead of keeping us waiting & worry about her...
popo, wish u get well soon........ muaksss!

my mum met an accident today morning.
the car driver who crushed into her myvi fled away immediately...
!@#$%#@!!@#$@!!!!
hate you hate you!!!
luckily she didn't get hurt.
but poor myvi is meeting her doctor now....

wish everything's gonna be fine....

NO MORE!!!

no more emo!!!
no more no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
^^
la~la~la~~~

我不喜欢

其实我超不喜欢我自己。
没有聪敏的头脑、
没有漂亮的五官、
没有雪白的肌肤、
没有美丽的姿态、
没有‘出得厅堂’的气质、
没有‘很有教养’的性格。

你的几句话足以刺破我没自信的心。
不堪一击的一针见血。
除了傻笑以外我好难过。

我希望你不会看见这一贴，
也不希望你发现我面具后的嘴脸。
我没怪你，真的没有。
因为我们一起度过的时光是快乐的。
永远都是快乐的。。。

Laziness

starting to get lazy these few days.
especially blogging.

need to wake up early tmr morning.
nitez nitez nitez~

Rainy Day

我不喜欢哭，
因为一旦哭就会没完没了，
越哭越伤感，越哭越停不下来，
除非哭到睡着了。

我更不喜欢大哭，
有人说，不开心哭出来比较好，不会那么难过。
他们所谓的哭，就是放声地哭出来。
我试过了，根本“哇”不出来，
我也不懂为什么，大概我忘了怎么“哇哇大哭”了。
可能在我心里是这样觉得的：流泪和大哭后还不是一样，难过得。
所以我不大哭（除了小时候啦！），只懂得流泪。

你的泪泉丰富吗？
你是爱哭鬼吗？

我的泪泉，算还好吧。。。
有时想哭的时候就偏偏哭不出来，情绪憋在心中不能释怀，蛮辛苦的。
但一旦哭出来，我说过了，没完没了，除非睡着了。

我承认我是爱哭鬼，
心情不好的时候，受到压力束缚的时候，不快乐的时候，
如果没得运动的时候，
如果找不到人倾诉的时候，
如果某某事情不想让别人知道的时候，
那就没办法了，只好哭，安静的哭。

有些伤心，哭过就算了，没办法了。
有些忧郁，哭过有结论有答案，最好了。
有些后悔，哭也哭不完，所以就别再哭了。

我想告别我“丰富”的泪泉了，
我不想再当什么爱哭鬼了，
我是坚强的！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
（总觉得这一贴好烂，烂贴！）

Sleepless!!!

OMG!!! after rolling on bed for an hour,
now alr 4.07am.......
later would be an important day for me leh.
why so much flash back floating in my head???!!!
it just a nice memorable song performed by me & my friend in my secondary school.
help! dream maker, pls give me a nice dream...
i want to sleep!!!

A Chim Post

a few days ago, my mum put the honey can in a bowl with some water,
we thought this method works to avoid the ant family.
here's the result:


surprisingly, one of the ant has successfully swam to the honey can!
well done!!!
few days ago my thought to those ants was like 'annoooooying!'
but today the ant has completely changed my thought.
i adore you! lolx

passage of the day:
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!!!

茫然

请容许我在这里发牢骚。
由于本人的英文能力太烂了，
用英文大概表达不出我心中的。。。（不懂是什么）
所以今天这一贴只好以中文在此碎碎念咯。
（并不代表本人的中文很厉害，请别误会……bla bla bla...)

不想出门，为了荷包着想。
更不想遇到认识的人，
不管是很久不见或是较好较熟的朋友，
因为我不懂要怎么应付他们的问候，
只懂得陪笑。。。

对于前途一片茫然。
对于将来的日子没有把握。
这些没有安全感的日子会持续多久？
我不懂。
只想尽快脱离这种日子。

不想再浪费时间等待，
take initiative rather than keep on waiting~

Childhood Memories

introducing one of my childhood memories...
besides of Disney animation,
my childhood entertainment also influenced by China's cartoons.
maybe you would think 'OMG!!! what a LAME CLASSIC KOLOT entertainment you got!'
but honestly i did enjoy them.
suddenly miss those cartoons,
after all, they'd been accompanied me many years in my childhood.
feel warm when i watched it at YouTube again,
especially when i found that i still can croons the melodies...

'Snow Kids'






'Black Cat Detective'
got a lot episodes for this cartoon.
but i love this episode the most:


and finally 'NaZha Riots the Seas'


thanks for my dad introduced these cartoons to me.
i guess most of my friends never watched them before. LOL!
missing the time we used to watch video or cartoon by video tape.
VCD or DVD weren't appeal in our daily life yet that time.
gush.............................the time passes so so so fast!
obviously, i'm aged!
but suddenly miss those cartoons pula?
act childish right SWT = ='''

enjoy!!!
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I dont like this feeling

it's just a feeling, in my mind, in my head, in my blood. why i'm not able to express it? try to process and analyze it again and again.

is it mad? nop, absolutely no.
helpless? a little bit.
unconfident? yup, obviously.
conclusion? what is this feeling actually? conclusion=no conclusion.

i should have courage to move one more step to the front. but why i move back... disappointed to myself. i make myself down again.

stupid you, be brave la! if want to improve then don't be afraid, just be strong & learn. mou guai yong!

My 23rd Big Day

i'm older, older & older again!!!
one more year will be my second 12 years.
that's right,
the time passes faster than what we expected, always.

big balloon POP! broken...

look like Stitch??? heh heh heh... hoi! don't want let you see my big mouth= =

Jusco Doraeyaki - Red Bean & Strawberry Flavors


new dress stolen from my lovely sister,
sorry, Da Jie~muaksss!


stiff face stiff face stiff face!
love this dress, wait you sale first then i will bring you home~ hohohoho....








DIY Birthday Card from ManyWan, nice!

the only present i received this year^^
thanks Bei Bei for spending your day & night celebrating my big day. muaksss!

thank you for my parents, family & friends,
for always be my side giving me support, guidance & care...
thankful to have you in my life, coloring my days & nights...

as age going up, responsibilities & burden become more & more in our life.
more & more things enter our mind.
the decision need to make.
the responsibilities we should undertake.
the things need to do.

actually a lot things need the first step to drive to a good beginning.
i know that, since a long time ago...
yup, i need courage, confidence & persistence as well.
need to learn, need to improve, need to CHANGE...

ADD OIL, TAN ZHUO HUI!!!

Belated Gift from a Lovely Girl

22-08-2009
received another graduation present tonight from Macy.
delighted my night. lalala~~~




DIY card,
it's so cute & colourful!!!
i will keep it as my precious collection forever!



In this picture: Coco Family (Coco + Little Coco)

Pei Sie, thank you so much for the gift!
& thank you for always being by my side~
Friendship Forever! ^Y^

Fear

fetched my dad to jetty at 1am just now.
felt scary on the way back alone.
not because of ghost hungry month.
but my safety,
scared if got strangers follow me.
what if i meet robbers (flee? or fight with them although i know i won't win?)
what if i meet kidnappers? (kick them. this was my naive thought when i was a kid)
yeah, my mum was right: "Malaysia is no longer a heaven, but hell"
even i left JB & came back to my hometown,
still the same, everybody must has safety awareness.
i went back home by using highway.
driving while singing loudly alone in car.
pheeeeeeeeeeeew, i reached home safely eventually~
but raining & thundering.....
what a scary night= =
i quickly stoop down a bit & open gate & finally....
~~~I'M HOME~~~
yeah yeah!

Convocation

16-08-2009

Convo Eve

acting stupid ^Y^

17-08-2009
Convocation!

Yahoooooooooooo! finally graduated lo!

hey ah tu & swee aik, what are you looking at? with sneaky smile '''= ='''
nightmare coming, i know.
that's why you all grabbed my flowers & gifts away from me.......
wanna fled but not managed to... haih
btw, it still a wonderful memory for me^w^
(but don't ever do that again plsss...too too scary...)


thank you to all of you for attending my convo!!!
so touching & warm...
your existence & smiles really delighted my uni life^^
may all the sweet memories always be with you,
wish you all have a fantastic uni life!
Ah Beng, congratulations for your graduation!







dear coursemates, it's happy to know you all from UTM.
may all your dreams come true and
wish you all have a bright prospective!



lovely senior Chuk Li
thank you so much for giving me so much assistance throughout these 3 years.
wish you all the best & good luck in your master course~
you can do it!


~3 of us again~
chee, finally xiao xiao & I got you at last to take this picture, pheeeeeeeeeeew~
although our friendship only became closer in our final 2 semesters,
but i really feel sweet & warm deeply from my heart,
wish you happy & lovely always!
miss you forever~








my pretty mum

after took lunch we 'borrow' cl house to rest a while.
then mum, jolie, manywan & i went to Sg.
dad & sis went back to Bw (pity can't come with us to enjoy another couple of days)

what a busy & tiring day............................
gone to bed at dono-what-time.
exhausted!


hey peng iu, thank you so much for the gifts...
really gam dong & happy to see you all in my convo.
miss you all, muaksss!!!

Coming Soon..........

my convocation coming
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JB wait me!
course mates wait me!!
chung ling friends wait me!!!
also Lao Da & Xiao Xiao, wait me!!!!
CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU ALL AGAIN~

Unexpected Early Gift

yam cha with Lin and Jun at Kocha Kopitiam just now.
surprisingly, received a convo gift from them.
my convocation only will be held on next Monday.
it's my first gift before my convocation!!!




wrapped by Jun, his skill much more better and nicer than girls.
Jun, i adore you!^^



so cute!


meaningful words & nice design~by Lin.
love it!
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actually i love the box covered with colourful gift wrapper so much!
not really willing to open it as I don't want to spoil it.
thanks for your hard work, Jun.
and also your good taste for the present and the gift wrapper, Lin.
love you both~
MUAKSSS!!!

Dirty Kitty

my dirty fatty kitty in my house.
MEOW~

Belated Post

7-08-2009
went Penang with Jolie, then Manywan and I sent her to TOA.
then went to PC Fair held at Pisa Stadium.
first time in my life to visit Pisa.
Lyn worked in samsung camera booth.
after that picked up Jolie then went home.
tired day.

8-08-2009
borrowed car from sister.
finally can hang out with Mei Lin!
planned to go ktv.
but saturday night session RM28 per head.
too expensive...
so we changed our destination to GSC.



not really funny, but actually not really bad.
just wondering why the crowd laughed,
until it became truly funny.
so Lin & I laughed too because of they laughed.

10-08-2009
Manywan & I brought Jolie to Immigration Office to do passport.
filled up the application form, took picture, photostat IC.
the officer checked for the document then only can get queue number.
'where's your Certificate of Birth? need photocopy too.'
'you made your IC when you're in primary school right?'
'YOU SHOULD REAPPLY YOUR IC & GET TEMPORARY IC TO APPLY PASSPORT.'

so no other ways,
went back home to get her Certificate of Birth, made a photocopy.
next straight away went to apply her IC and also temporary IC.
on the way went to Immigration Office, rain pouring heavily too.
phew, finally we arrived and get queue number.
showing the officer all of the documents while expecting we can get passport by today.
but this kind of feeling usually bring some unexpected matters to be happened.
so it comes: 'do you have your own passport before?'
Jolie and I watching each other with confusing eyes.
then we said: 'no'
'you have your own passport before right? why say no? YOU HAVE TO BRING THE OLD PASSPORT ALONG WITH YOU TOO'
then the officer just turned around and started chatting with her colleagues.
what kind of disappointment is this. tiring......

so we chose to leave the office & went KFC for lunch.
decided to go Immigration Office in another day.
slept for the whole afternoon after went back home.

11-08-2009
went for an interview in Penang.
still in consideration to take the job.

12-08-2009
borrowed car from sister during her lunch time.
sent her back to work, then brought Jolie to do passport again.
today the office was a bit different compared to that day.
that day the officers were only hang masks on their neck.
but all of the officers today were truly wore their masks.
several kids and ladies also put on their masks.
yeah, the scene really scared both of us.
H1N1 became truly extremely serious in our country within this 2 weeks.
one more thing,
when the officer put on masks,
both of us can't really get what they told.
after the officer check the documents, he spoke something,
but both of us gave him feedback by: 'huh?' (together)
then he spoke louder:
'tunggu dulu, nanti baru panggil untuk bayar, tak dengar eh?'
Jolie n I just kept on laughing. really funny...

after paid we thought we can get passport by today.
'but' came again.
'please come to collect your passport on tomorrow'
OMG, WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?!!!!
that day the officer told us that 2 hours after passport application can get passport.
now got 2 more hours to go 5.30pm.
now only 3pm. what kind of government service!

nothing we can do. then went to Sunway Carnival.
Sakae>Vincii>Watson>Guardian>Sasa...
after that took away blended drinks at Seberang Jaya.
then only picked up sister from her office.